This is a photo of me standing at the base of the Dolomites in Molveno Italy (2016).  My son and I rode a cable car and chair lift up the mountain just so we could ride down it. There were a few mean hill climbs too.

You know you love mountain bike riding when you deliberately ride up a mountain just to ride down it.

For those of you that don’t know me, YES, I am a lover of MTB riding. It puts a huge smile on my face, and my whole Body zings with joy for hours, even days after. I LOVE it!!

I love how it brings me into the present moment. When I’m riding there is nothing else. Just me, the bike and the trail.  And the people you meet through riding are pretty damn awesome too.

As I feel the joy this photo brings me, I also feel a deep sense of gratitude and pride.

I am proud of myself for embracing fear and saying “YES” to learning mountain bike riding (I did courses through She Rides. A big shout out to Robyn Bevitt). I am proud of myself for speaking up about depression and seeking help. And I am really proud of myself for choosing to heal past trauma and the symptoms of PTSD.

I have been on this healing journey for 6 years now and I can honestly say, it is not an easy path to take. But it is worth it. Looking at this photo and remembering the buzz I felt riding down the mountain, I know in my heart of hearts I made the right choice to speak up and seek help.

This photo would never have been taken if it wasn’t for my courage to speak up, and for the incredible unwavering support I’ve received (and continue to receive) from my family, friends and therapists. I am deeply grateful for those who stand with me.

For anyone who is struggling with depression or any mental health issue, please ask for help.  Don’t be afraid to speak up.  You don’t have to do this alone.

Jane