How vertigo healed suppressed anger

If you’ve been following me for a while, you know I’m a big believer in leaning in and listening to what our body is telling us.

When we give our body space to express itself in this way, we create space for deep healing.

Many years ago, I had the most profound experience of healing.

I was experiencing what I can only describe as vertigo.  The dizziness would come on me at any moment.  

One night, I was shopping with my husband and boys.

While looking at skateboards, the dizziness feeling came over me.  It was horrible.  I left my family to shop while I sat in the car.

I decided to check-in with my Body.  Why was this happening?  What was my Body telling me?

Closing my eyes, I took my attention into my head and the dizziness. Breathing here for a moment, my focus was then drawn down to my throat.

I sat in this space; breathing and asking my Body what it needed to show me.

My focus was then guided down into my right hip.  This was most unexpected, as my right hip was not hurting.

Breathing into my hip, I suddenly felt anger coming up to the surface.  Sitting in this space of anger, I grabbed a notepad and pen.

I gave my body a voice.

The words I wrote were unrecognisable.  Letters were jagged and pressed deeply into the paper.

They were filled with rage.  Suppressed, hidden rage.

I wrote. I cried. I released.

I was so shocked that my right hip was holding all this anger.  And, that the dizziness was stemming from this space in my body.

After this profound release, there was no more dizziness.

This was the last time I would experience vertigo.

It took me 3 months to stop and listen to my body.  It took about 15 minutes for my Body to release what it no longer needed.

I am always grateful for this experience.  It showed me just how important it is to lean into our Bodies with love and compassion.  It showed me that when we give our Bodies a voice, we create space to heal, and live from a place of empowerment.

Jane